Finding My Way

Why We Should All Review 3 Days.  *OMG*  The Catch-22 of writing and reviewing. The first of the reviews are due to break publicly on Tuesday, and while I'm hearing reassuring things from most of the reviewers, I'm still incredibly nervous. These people read books and review them, most of them for a living! It's their job! To me, that means reviewers have seen the best and the worst and the boring and the mediocre books, a whole spectrum, and hearing their opinions about how and where my book fits in among the thousands they've read makes me so effing neurotic. I've never really cared about the opinions of others in my daily life, but in some way I need to care about what the reviewers think, since good reviews means other people will be willing to read my work. I may write because it fulfills something in me, but I also need to sell books, or writing becomes a debilitating hobby. I have aimed for quality and originality, and hopefully the love...

When Good Things......Well, Shit. 12:20 AM 6/24/2015 A midnight therapy session. Waiting and hating it.  Wanting more and resenting it.  Restless and edgy and afraid, and so mad at myself I choke on it.  Things will always be, "it'll get better" and never once, better. Stuck in a moment that never ends,  always leaning forward trying to bend,  but breaking instead.  I get pulled back,  yanked down, And I feel it. It's here, now dragging, dulling, grasping Thicker than water, and nowhere near  as clean. I want to move,  to walk,  burst into a run, leave! I want out. But I can't. I'm here,  now,  too present to pretend otherwise. Apathy and sarcasm  shielded the worst, blocked the grief  and disappointment. Once armor, now injury. Wanting more,  needing more. So fucking tired,  too exhausted to be...

Wild Pitch on Amazon  5 STARS *Spoiler Free Review* I am not a sports fan, and it's not often I'll read a book in the m/m genre that involves sports. It takes a rare book, by an especially talented author to get my interest and keep it when sports and sex mix. Sloan Johnson is one such writer, and I am left with one of the most enduring book hangovers I've had in a long time after having finished Wild Pitch.  Sean and Mason, the two MC's, are both professional players on different teams, and have been friends for a long time. Best friends, and the story benefits so much from the fact that Johnson creates their relationship foundation from long-term friendship. Secrets, family angst, work and distance all come to bear down on the lovers, and I think the book would have been far more stressful a read if Sean and Mason didn't have years of friendship and trust between them to make things work. Even when things get tough, and it looks bad for them, I ...

Wolves on Smashwords Wolves on Amazon Getting down to the wire. Gawd, I'm nervous. What if no one likes it? What if no one reviews? What if its horrible, and no one told me? *smack* Okay, I feel marginally better now. I can't help but freak out. This is a huge deal for me. Even bigger than the erotica. The erotica I knew was good, and and I didn't really freak because it was for a niche market and was bound to deal well there. Here, now, Wolves is for a broader audience, and may not do well at all. And i'm terrified. Not because I want sales to be awesome, though that would be great, it's because i'm carrying this fear around that I'm not good enough to be worthy of living my dream. To write. Just write. And be happy doing it.

Cover art by Kellie Dennis of Book Cover By Design Book Cover By Design Get The Prince's Consort at Amazon I'll just leave this picture right here.......Mmmhhhmm. Got my first erotica a brand-new cover. I can't design anything visual and artsy to save my life.  Kellie Dennis is a master, she is amazing. I'm going to commission her for everything I write. The sequel, The King's Command, is slated for release in late August. Popping out 3k words a day I can be done in two weeks, plenty of time to get it edited and a new cover designed for it!

Amazon Link Goodreads Review Pleasantly Tangled 3.5 Stars First, I enjoyed the book. It was sweet, sexy, and charming. Christian is delightfully wounded with a grasping need to be who he truly is past his own insecurities and traumas. Logan is a buoyant charmer with a ready smile and quick wit...and a steady hand with a paddle. I'll explain the 3.5 rating below.  While Christian is the older man in the relationship (by only five years, but in your twenties, that can be a huge maturity gap), and a veteran of the Middle Eastern conflicts, he is the more damaged of the two men, wounded mentally, emotionally, and physically by his service and the betrayal he suffered at the hands of his own men. Logan is younger, and at first glance, a bit of an effervescent playboy. That's just the surface though, for both men, and Thianna does an admirable job of peeling back the layers to get to the core of each man, and showing us who they truly are, and who they can be together....

Goodreads Link below: No Place Left To Run 4 Stars Zarah Detand did a marvelous job with No Place Left To Run. The style of writing, the mechanics, was at first too abrupt for me, with characters receiving little to no clarification as to who they were before the plot picked up and made me forget about pesky things like back story. I'll be honest, at first I was put off by this, but I pushed through the first two chapters and found myself very happy I kept reading. The plot keeps moving, the characters and the two MC's are never stagnant, and the way Detand keeps the internal monologues and personalities of Samuel and Ryan distinct and separate was masterful. Eventually, as the MC's get to know each other, the reader is let in on the private lives and pasts of our two lovers, at nearly the same pace as they learn about each other. A great idea, as it kept the story moving, and helped to avoid the stereotypical bodyguard trope that is so overplayed in ...